Saturday, September 26, 2009

Just a thought....

The strength that I see in you,
How I wish it could be in me too,
No matter what anyone says,
No matter what anyone could possible do,
No one can ever take away the amazing person I see in you.

You bring hope that everything will be better,
Bring some peace to this wounded soul,
In days ahead there is much to smile for,
And the best chance to feel finally whole.

Monday, September 21, 2009


Facing the darkness,
With the sunlight behind,
I turn to see it,
but find only the dark in my mind.

Find me again when the stars shine down,
hidden by the darkness that is always around.

I cannot be sure,
When again the light may come,
I may not see anything,
Any chance, anyone.

Broken inside, with secrets unseen,
And I may never know what any of them mean.

Friday, September 18, 2009


Give me a chance and I'll try and do whatever it takes to make things right. Err... I keep trying to remember when things made sense, and I can't really. There was probably a time when I was little, but since I have no memory of anything that far back, it seems as though nothing has ever made sense. I wanted to think that I had finally figured things out, that I knew where I was going, how I was going to get there, and who would be around to join me. I wanted to think that. I really did.
I haven't lost my direction, and amazingly enough, I haven't lost my steam either. So that's new, and different. Most of the time in my life when one thing went wrong I let just about everything else spin out of control. I am pretty good at that. So far at least, this time around I am mostly keeping it together. Though I am giving myself opportunity to lose it all again, I am trying to focus my energy where I think it can do the most good. We'll see how that works out.
So I know where I'm going, I see the goal and have a pretty good idea of how I'm getting there, but as per always, something is missing. As far as that goes, I don't really know what I want. It is almost as if every time I think I might have an answer, something changes, or even when I think I'm ready to not worry about it for a little while, I find a way to confuse the crap out of everthing again. Maybe tommorrow I'll figure out where I'm trying to get to on this. I doubt it though, that would be too easy.